Friday, November 5, 2010

Don't you hate it

when you lose to someone who you KNOW isn't as good as you?

Especially when she's skinny and pretty and everyone's favorite, and even though your song was ten times better than hers, she goes on to the final round and you get left in the fucking dust.
Especially when she sings the same song you were going to sing in the finals. AND YOU WERE GOING TO DO IT BETTER.

Fuck that. Fuck everyone.
Losing to someone like that just fucking sucks. Mostly because it's like a slap in the face, saying, "You're not good enough, but it's because you're fat."

Fuck fuck fuck fuck.
I haven't felt this shitty in a really fucking long time.

I know I'm never going to get the part I want in the musical this year. This is a big fucking wake-up call.
I think it's time to stop fucking trying at everything.
Because all I ever get is disappointed.


  1. i'm sorry hun. i'm sure you were amazing. you just have to keep trying and believe you will get there one day. i know that's the last thing you want to hear but you will.
    stay strong x

  2. Don't stop trying. Or you'll look back on this day thinking, "I should have keep going back then. I should have kept it 110%. I would be where I wanted to be by now." Push on, I believe in you <3

  3. I hate it when someone skinny beats me at anything... but in a way im like well thats what i get for being a pig... sucks so much :(
    dont quit tho - this is when you prove you can kill it