Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Starting my life over tomorrow.
Because I'm too fucking fat.

I don't even feel any initiative to make a change, either.
I just want an easy way out.
But there is no easy way out.

It's either starve and get thinner, or don't starve and get fatter.

And, let's be honest, no one ever wants to get fatter, no matter what those naturally skinny bitches say.

I wish I had stories to tell you.
But I have no guys, my friends are, well, annoying, and I don't talk to my friends from camp like, at all.
I have my road test scheduled for next week.
Yeah, that's right, I'm almost eighteen and still don't have my license.

I realize I'm rambling. I have to go to sleep so I can wake up in five hours.
I took a four hour nap today. It was amazing.

Goodnight. I love you all, thank you for your kind words. :]


  1. I love fresh beginnings, forget about the past & just start again yeah? :-) Good luck girl, I look forward to hearing what happens! H x

  2. We love you! Hang in there. <3

  3. I thinking starting your life tomorrow is perfect, we have no control over the past so let it go and move on

    good luck, I know you'll find your motivation to work hard for what you want

  4. I'll take a fresh start with you, Charlie!

  5. Don't feel bad about being 18 and not having your liscence. I'm 25 and I don't either. I was litterally so crazy in my late teens/early 20s even I reconized I couldn't handle driving. Now I just can't afford to pay for lessons/the tests.