Wednesday, December 22, 2010


She gets everything I want. She has everything I want.
It's not fair.
It's not fucking fair.
She has the body I want.
She won the first singing contest.
Now she has my part.
All because she's skinny.

I just purged for the first time in a year because of this.
It's so much easier now.
I'm not scared of it anymore.

All I had today was a white-chocolate and peppermint covered pretzel stick and a chocolate Frosty from Wendy's.
It's now down the toilet and I smell like vomit.

This just ruined my Christmas.

1 comment:

  1. Please dont make vomiting a habit. It shouldnt be the only way you purge calories. (its better to exercise or dont consume in the first place, but u already knew that....dumb me :P)... It doesnt get up as much as you think! (I learned this the hard way).

    But yes, I know how you feel. That one or 2 people that dont mean it, but just get under our skin, by being little miss perfects.grrrr. Hey, where like allmost the same weight and height. :D

    This is why we are here though rite? To get back what is ours. One pound at a time. You can do it.