Tuesday, January 12, 2010

True story.

Yeah, my friends hit me when I say I'm fat. It's gotten to the point where they really hurt, so I just say shit to myself. In my head. Like a crazy ass mofo.

I've fasted all day today. I want to continue. Don't know if I'll make it. I'm hungry. It was almost easy not eating today. I forget how little work it actually is to fast. Up at 167.4, maybe I'll be down tomorrow.

Alright, now that my random sporadic comments are done, I have some things to not eat. :]

Oh, I forgot to mention that I got in a fight with one of my friends at lunch (the one who punches me) for not eating anything today. I basically told her that I wasn't eating, and if she was going to complain about me not eating, she could do the same for the anorexic girl who sits with us when she comes to lunch, and rarely eats (I refuse to say "other" anorexic girl. I'm not anorexic. Not quite). She tried to get my other friend to back her up, but luckily another of my friends came over to distract them. If I don't eat tomorrow, I'm sure I'll get major shit, but at this point I just don't care.


  1. WTF, your friends hit you? How exactly is that supposed to be helping you? It's good that they care about you and accept you for who you are, regardless of size, but couldn't they pick a better way to help?

    Urgh. Sorry for ranting about your friends... but people like that piss me off

    If you'd like a suggestion to get them off your case, DO bring a lunch... but DON'T eat it. Pull apart sandwiches, stir puddings with a spoon, peel oranges, but don't actually put it in your mouth.

    That might not work because your friends already know you have eating problems... but it's worth a shot, right?

    Good luck & stay wonderful

  2. sucks... my friends at school are different than yours. half of them think they could lose weight aswell, so it's easy enough to chat about diets... but they don't understand starving like i do... they think its unhealthy and fucks up your metabolism... but obviously my metabolism wasn't doing it's job right anyway...
    stay strong, you're so not alone on this one :)

  3. My friends are like that too.
    They get super super super pissed when I don't eat....

  4. yeah, my friends were a bit the same, but I would just pretend to eat, or drink tea in a thermos and say it was soup or some shit. Then they either thinks it's and stop or see it won't make a difference and give up bugging you.