Friday, March 5, 2010

Funhouse Mirrors.

Thank you guys for your lovely comments.
Maybe I am being a bit hard on J, and I know she's most definitely fucked up in the head. But she's been this way since seventh grade, and it pisses me off that she doesn't even attempt to try to be a good person (I could go into detail about what I mean here, but I'll save it for a rainy day. If You're absolutely desperate to know, well, you're out of luck. The short short version is that she's an absolute bitch and fucks with peoples minds. That doesn't even begin to cover it). At least I try to be nice to people, even though I know my mind is fucked up.

I had done well today, until I came home and ate dinner.
To which I say, fuck.

Have you ever had a day when you just FEEL heavy? I mean, I always feel heavy, but one of those days when your limbs feel as though they're 100 pounds each and it's all you can do to climb up the stairs into bed?
That's what I feel like.

On another note, I have fully confirmed that I am not a normal human being. Also known as, my brain is messed the fuck up.
Normal people gain two or three pounds, they look in the mirror and see no difference.
I look in the mirror and see an even fatter stomach, a puffy-cheeked face, and a disappearing collarbone.
All from three pounds, tops.

Did they replace my mirrors with funhouse mirrors while I slept?


  1. I have totally had those days when you really feel heavy. They haven't replaced it with funhouse mirrors, it's called a funhouse perception! I just took a pics today and I was like, I look fat. My dad looked at it and said I didn't. I was all, but my arm are shaped weird!! And he just looked at me like I'd lost my mind. So yeah, it's funhouse perception babe. BTW, people always see a difference when they gain weight. They just don't think it's enough to truly concern them.
    I hope you're doing better babe!

  2. "Funhouse perception" i hate that.
    On your conclusion that you are not a normal human being, i don't think anyone is completely "normal"
    Stay Strong, Live Life.
    Xx. Lillie

  3. my mirrors play tricks to... well, i guess they could be playing tricks. part of me knows im the only one who sees whats really there in the mirror.
    the fat. the bloating.... the puffy cheeks. my face looks fatter after i eat. straight after. thats too fast right?
    its unfair.