This is a post that I started last night.
I just had a crying fit lasting an hour, going over and over in my head things that have been said to me, things I've realized, things that really hurt to think about. Now my eyes are puffy, my throat is sore, my nose is runny, and I'm never going to get to sleep tonight.
God, what the fuck is wrong with me?
Here's a list of what I thought about:
1. I don't fit in anywhere.
2. I can't connect with people. I don't know how.
And that's where I stopped.
It seems like whenever something brings me up, there's always more that brings me down. And I am so fucking low right now I can't even imagine how I could feel worse about myself.
And now I'm sobbing again.
Have been ever since I got home, don't let the words fool you.
I am fat. I am lazy. I am pathetic.
And maybe if I tried harder, I could get everything that I want.
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I feel the same at the minute, except with the crying, I don't cry, I can't.
ReplyDeleteI wish I could give you a hug and take one from you.
Sending understanding hugs your way. Not really the same as the real thing.
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I am sorry you feel this way.
ReplyDeleteI know how terrible it is. I don't really have a good piece of advice to give you, because when I feel this way I just sleep it off. Or cut myself. Neither of which is good.
But if you feel like talking I'm here. I can't promise to make you feel better, but I can listen to you.
I am sorry you feel this way.
ReplyDeleteI know how terrible it is. I don't really have a good piece of advice to give you, because when I feel this way I just sleep it off. Or cut myself. Neither of which is good.
But if you feel like talking I'm here. I can't promise to make you feel better, but I can listen to you.
Don't forget there is lot's of people who love you here and that even though some people you see physicly can't see how amazing you are, we can.
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