And I hope to never again.
All my life, I've been pretty confident, at least when it comes to dance.
Today, I felt ugly and clompy and ungraceful.
I'm always critical in my head of everyone, even more of myself. Usually my arabesques are adequate, my balances are a breeze and my pirouettes are passable, and don't give me reason to frown.
Today, I frown.
For the first time in my life, in a dance studio, I felt unpleasant and uncomfortable and unsure.
I still feel that way.
Even though I ate my lunch today, my friends didn't believe me when I told them I did (I ate lunch in the art room with other friends).
It was a fucking salad, like total 142.5 calories. Plus strawberrys, 45.
I did eat it, for the record.
Around 500 calories today. Probably a bit over. Ick.
I feel disgusting. I'll have my salad for lunch tomorrow and for dinner.
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I've always thought dancers looked so graceful and pretty, I'm sure you are aswell.
ReplyDeleteI cant dance at all. lol
And 500 is great, you're doing well, chin up
Tomorrow will be better
<3
I stripped on a table while my friend did coke last summer and I weighed about 130lbs. I'm sure you look great dancing.
ReplyDeleteAnd it's none of your friends' business if you eat or not! Tell them you ate and to shut up:)
Love you, girl. And I'm sure you loiok amazing dancing.
And yes, 500 is VERY FUCKING GOOD!
I'm sure you're a great dancer! You'll find your groove again :)
ReplyDeletenah, he hasn't brought it up. Our family's process is to ignore it and hope it goes away.